Party Away

Diamonds

2009-08-15T12:21:00.001+08:00

This week has been pretty cool so far! I met up with some of my friends over the weekends and catching up with them was indeed awesome. Im gonna really miss one of them cos she's leaving for New York for her studies. Its a long period of 4 years man! Having met up with them really made me look back into the past when we were all still young and elfish. But I also felt really helpless seeing another one of them going through all that crap right now. Emotions are truly Man's greatest flaws. Nonetheless the night ended with a sumptuous and enchanting meal at PS cafe over at Dempsey.

Lol night at butter factory was great except for the fact that I puked. Haha but I still enjoyed myself a great deal. Hmmm... but on a side note there's just something which I find pretty uncomfortable with. I just feel that she's changed so much cos of her friends around her. But I still think she's sensible enough to know exactly what she's doing.

I sent 2 of my friends off over at the airport. One is flying to New Yor, the other to Melbourn for a short trip. Haha did I forget to mention that I totally forgot her birthday? Lol no worries, it'll be ready when she's back. I wish you two a pleasant journey and fruitful trip!

And to my dear E, put all those crap behind and enjoy yourself over there. And like I said many times before, tell him to fuck off... U know it yourself best. Cheer up girl, sometimes you have to cry out all the tears to make room for a heart full of smiles.

Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cos I can't help her now
She's down in it
She tried her best and now she can't win
It's hard to see them on the ground
Her diamonds falling down

I cant describe it...

2009-08-10T00:11:00.002+08:00

Such a weird feeling that I'm having right now, kinda uneasy and edgy. Perhaps it all boils down to that, but honestly I'm not too sure of the way things are. I really cant decipher what's in her mind...

I am totally baffled and disconcerted by all that has happened. I blame myself for not doing it earlier and having the audacity to do it.

To daunt one's adversaries...

Thank goodness...

2009-08-06T20:51:00.000+08:00

Consider it a great sense of relieve... I wonder who understands what I meant. Anyway, I'm just absolutely relieved that everything's fine. Its a chapter closed!

Long long time since I last blogged. Well, it wasn't because I didnt had the time but rather cos I was not feeling that okay for the past couple of weeks.

Away with all those boring crap, who's up for some fun this weekend??? I truly enjoyed myself last weekend. I think that's about all for now!!!

Too much things to be said

2009-07-04T00:02:00.002+08:00

Long long time since my last post. My memory seems to be failing, I cant really remember what has really been happening for the past weeks. All I can remember is that I finally finished Prison Break. Here's a little spoiler - they got their freedom but Michael Scofield did not. The ending was kinda disappointing, its like he went through so much but yet he ended up like that. I also finished One Tree Hill Season 6. If I'm right season 7 is coming up later this year. I also happened to watch Transformer 2 twice! Lol

Oh and I truly enjoyed myself that night with XT, WC, N, D, WZ, G. Haha we're like ecstatic that night! Fun fun fun!

Alright, I guess this is the end of my post. I'm too lazy to lay out everything here.

And here's a song which seems to brighten up the day for me. Let's hope it does the same for you.

And could I forget what happened TODAY! I was sexually harassed by her. Lol like seriously man. Haha she's by far the most horny I ever seen. I needa keep more than a distance away from her. I'm traumatised!

Oh Oh one last thing... I seem to be interested in engineering yet again! Haha cant blame my mercurial nature!

Elvis left the building...

2009-06-17T15:10:00.000+08:00

Days in ARC is over and done with. It brings back both good and bad memories but life there is definitely enjoyable. Though my best buddies and I are separated, we're still in the same camp. I really hope we can remain tight. Kheex and N aren't that fortunate as me. They have the 'perfect' people in their team. Its gonna be tough spending 1.5 years with them, we all know that. But all I can say is, you'll find a way to pull it through eventually.

Im gonna miss JX a lot. But lucky for him, his new camp is like 15min bus ride away from his home. Lol for most of us its like 1.5hrs journey??? Haha one end of Singapore to the other end. I hope the few of us can remain as tight, especially JX cos he's like the most distant among us. I guess separation is just part and parcel of life, we just have to learn how to deal with it.

This is for you Kheex,
Sometimes people have to cry out all the tears to make room for a heart full of smiles.
Cheer up! Things may not be as bad as you'd imagined.

Bane or boon???

2009-06-04T21:32:00.003+08:00

Isn't strange? There's many people who kinda dislike him, but yet V and I are like buddies nowadays. Lol but I can get along with all the people there. Anyway, I'm still thinking about what he said today. Haha I wanna be TS, but yet at the same time I wonder if I'm qualified for it. I hope my buddies can be in the same team as me, but it appears they prefer not working with V. Honestly, I somehow agree with what some of them commented and I really wonder if I'll be able to tolerate him in time to come. Anyway, I hope for the best in what's to come.

2 weeks

2009-06-01T21:53:00.003+08:00

The clock just seems to be ticking real slowly during weekdays, but it zooms past so swiftly over the weekends. Unknowningly, its been almost 3 months over at ARC. My little journey over there is coming to an end and we'll all be seperated yet again. I've made great friends there and I've also encountered different kinds of people that make up this world. I do hope that when the posting comes next friday some of them can be in the same camp as me. My life would have been a bore if not for some of them.

I remembered couple of weeks ago my friend asked me what I would want for my birthday. At that point of time my immediate answer was "I've no idea..." But honestly, I would have said "Does it matter? What's keeping us together anyway?" It was nothing but a frivolous question that was being asked...

Nvm about that. 2 nice songs to enjoy.

'Ah-la-ma'

2009-05-28T20:43:00.001+08:00

whatever they are, you can fix them, you just have to want it bad enough...

What an irony...

2009-05-26T20:24:00.002+08:00

Its simply ironic. I've seen people who can't decide between medicine in NUS and economics at warwick with STB scholarship to others who are compelled to study overseas because of various reasons. If KX reads this, I guess he will know what I'm talking about. Lol I'm kinda lost at what I wanna say. I think both of us are depressed over similar issues. Haha its really nice talking to him.

Grateful to have awesome people like them in my life.

Here's a song with nice lyrics.

Grrr...

2009-05-25T21:33:00.002+08:00

I'm totally pissed with you... It's just absolutely ridiculous.

Edith Wharton

2009-05-21T15:48:00.002+08:00

She once wrote: "There is no one as kind as you, no one who gave me reasons I understood for doing what it seems so hard."

Midnight skies and sleepless mondays

2009-05-16T00:32:00.003+08:00

I should have been at a party or in a cinema at least, enjoying myself. But I chose not to. I'm really lost and there's just so much predicaments. I went out today supposedly to chill out but I headed back home in the end. Sorry J. There's just quite a bit going on right now.

Life is short and you live it only once. You make the choices and decisions yourself.

"Bad Days"

2009-05-13T22:12:00.002+08:00

Check this out. He's truly awesome. The background music is nice too. Lol its a thai song actually.

Troubled and stressed out for quite a while now. I can't really help but think about those issues all the time. The weekend is nearing and its all that I look forward to these days...

"That is one secret I will never tell."

Tests...

2009-05-09T00:56:00.004+08:00

This has been a pretty busy week. I had a couple of tests to prepare and it ain't over yet. The actual theory test will be on tuesday. IPA was on thursday and I got a B for it. And today was my practical test and FTT. And I passed everything! Lol but without the help, I'm sure many would have faile the practical.

There's like this load of weight on me and I can barely take it anymore. I have to go through all this by myself because some things are not meant to be shared...
I'm backed at the crossroad once again...... How foolish can I get?

A great song. Enjoy.

I always have and always will,

2009-05-03T18:38:00.002+08:00

A beautiful song. Enjoy.

I'm back at the crossroad once again. There's too many thoughts on my mind and the sense of loss is gripping onto me tightly...

That's not what I need from you

2009-04-30T23:27:00.003+08:00

This week was shiok, I only reported camp once. Lol 2days MC. Anyway cohesion day at sentosa wasn't really that fun and it was what I had really expected. Things was so rush today. I went to sentosa for about 3 hours before rushing home to prepare for my interview. Lucky my mum could fetch me there if not I'll definitely be late. Lol before that I was already comtemplating whether to go all the way there for the interview. I wasn't really interested and doubt I'll get it. Anyway its not that important whether I get the scholarship or not because there are other things which matters more to me.

Basically today was quite dull and tiring for me because I didn't sleep well last night, plus the long journys here and there. There's like this thing in my mind which keeps me up lately. I was home before 1830 and I was so tired I kept falling asleep on the train. Lol I missed my stop once while on my way home from camp. Bad experience.

Nobody seems to be tagging or blogging anymore. Where have they all gone to now?

If today was your last day...

2009-04-19T21:59:00.004+08:00

21st Dec 2012 is said to be a day where the world could possibly end due to some astrological event. There's been much debate and controvesy on it. It's truly intriguing because it revolves around science and superstition. Anyway I just found this quite interesting. Do some research on it and you will get what I mean.

Anyway I just watched a documentary regarding crude oil. It really sets me thinking and the producer seems to be so biased against the Americans. In the video, it mentioned that if every US household were to change a light bulb to a flourescent one, it would eliminate 10 billion pounds of carbon dioxide emissions in a year. This is the equivalent of taking 1 million cars of the road. In short, it's been said that Americans' way of life have to change because their usage of crude oil is extremely high and it is totally unnecessary. How true to all this I am not really sure. But what I am sure is every individual effort counts and there are choices where individuals can make.

During my time...

2009-04-18T01:36:00.002+08:00

I should be sleeping right now but I don't feel like wasting my time on meaningless sleep. It feels as if I'm wasting precious time away.

I just came back from bowling and not as well as expected cos the release didn't seem to be right. I need to work on this and get it consistent.

My current camp taught me one thing so far. I am able to communicate quite fluently in English, Mandarin and Hokkein which gives me the ability to mingle with everyone! Lol like Staff Daniel always mentions, "vulgarities are needed to create an emphasis..." Haha I think this is quite true in some situations. My mind is totally corrupted by these people with those freaking dirty thoughts man. This definitely not who I really am. I definitely don't wanna talk like how some of them do.

I seem to have so much in my mind right now. Am I thinking too much (like what S said)? I'm not too sure about that, but I'm sure is I just wanna give things some careful thought and be prudent about my decisions...

"I will"

2009-04-12T00:27:00.004+08:00

There's pretty much going on in my life right now and its a wild ride.
I went bowling ytd and I saw quite a number of my friends. Lol my juniors, senior and good friend were all there. Haha bowled pretty alright and I was glad I got back the tempo and my release is working out quite decently. Later at night I saw DG and JH at rebel. Lol DG was like high sia. I chanced upon a number of my friends in a single day.

My cousin's wedding today was awesome. It was really touching when she was giving the speech and I'm sure everyone felt it in their hearts. My younger cousins are like so adorable. One of them commented that she saw a princess. Lol mind you ok, my cousins are really really pretty. Haha and everyone agreed that the groom look like an utter nerd when he was around my age. And I have two cousins who looked like mixed blood. So in my opinion and that of others, they are handsome.

I learnt quite a bit during the service today; One cannot expect people around them to change for the better but rather they should start by changing themselves. Only when that happens will one notice that things around them will improve.

Leave, Cleave and Weave. 3 simple words but yet their meanings are so deep...

Tongue, Time and Trust are the 3 things we all need to guard...

I'm sorry I didn't make it. I didn't expect something like that but my heart really wanted to be there with you and the others. Disappointment for you once again, and maybe that's what all I'm capable of...

Congratulations to G and J once again. Together forever more.

Its been so long...

2009-03-31T22:11:00.001+08:00

It's been half month since my last post. Lol I've been having lots of fun during this time, be it in the day, afternoon, late at night and wee hours. Haha.
Ooo I just passed my BTT and NUS already accepted my application liao. I'm quite busy during the past week or so with lots of stuff going on, but still I didn't missed out on any fun. Lol I went for SMU interview last weekend and I don't know if I still wanna go there. Anyway my interview was kinda screwed up. Haha cos I hardly put in any effort for it. My mum don't really want me to go SMU; she prefers NUS, so I don't know what to do if SMU accepts my application.

This part is like real funny. My friend's mum commented that we two looked like a little couple when I went over for dinner, especially so when the dinner was prepared by *********. LOL

As for army, I'm having doubts about everything. Its definitely gonna be useful with the things I'm gonna learn, but it seems that our commanders for my wing to be much much stricter than the rest and it kinda spoils the fun sometimes. Lol and everybody thinks our IC is F***ed up. Whatever man, about 10 more weeks I'll be posted to another unit.

My cousin is going to get married in the following week! Time simply flies and she's just 1 year older than my eldest sis.

Music rocks my world! My ipod is full of songs which is really nice and thank goodness they kept me company all this time. It's time for me to lights out and sleep already...

stressed

2009-03-14T22:24:00.002+08:00

Right now, I'm pretty stressed up because I don't what choices to make. Not that I'm capricious or indecisive, but it's really not easy making a decision here. I know what course I'm gonna take but the question is which university is more ideal. The second part is double degree or double major. NUS and NTU doesn't really offer the double degree that I want. But if I'm in NUS I still stand a chance of customizing my own double degree program after the first year. Well, this only works if my grades are sufficiently good and on top of that both faculties must give me the green light for me to pursue my customized double degree program. The bottom line is should I go NTU, NUS or SMU? I think I've ruled out the possibility of going to NTU because I don't really like the culture there and it seem to be dry and mundane. I know that it isn't fair to judge the college in this manner, but that is the first impression it has given me. Yeah, I know NTU has a higher ranking for their business school among the 3, but I personally don't like it there. So I guessed its either NUS or SMU. This is so so fucked up.

Nice day with my friends :) :) :)

J and his sec 1 photo

A new direction???

2009-03-11T22:49:00.003+08:00

Haha thx to G. I think I have finally found what I like to study and pursue already!!! However, every single universities and professors agree that its intellectually demanding and challenging, but its highly rewarding, well paid and its rated one of the top five jobs in US.
But there is still something which has yet to come true. I really really want it so badly...

It's over

2009-03-11T18:12:00.002+08:00

POP lo!! My experience in BMT is over. Now I'm a private not a recruit anymore. Haha
My first part of my army journey is over and final one is going to begin on 23Mar, so until then its my block leave. Road march is the thing which I dread most. Its not entirely physically demanding but rather it lies in the mind. Its just mind over matter. Pain is temporary, glory is eternal. I'm glad to have my mates there during the march and we all made it without anyone falling out. Baik Mohawk company! I have to say these few weeks have really been memorable. The comradeship and camaraderie are simply awesome.

I'm lost...

2009-03-08T16:59:00.002+08:00

Yay! I'll be passing out this tuesday from tekong! My block leave starts from 11-22 March. I'll probably be quite busy during this time having fun and of course, I'll be spending my time wisely to decide on many many many things...

I went to SMU Open House on saturday and I saw so many familar faces there. Lol caught me by surprise. From army mates to secondary classmates to tj pals. I shopped and 'movied' that day. Everything was packed. My schedule was tight and SMU was packed with people. Lol some of the talks was extremely boring and redundant in one way or another. Haha but it still helped me clarify some of my doubts.

I'm quite lost right now. I have no idea which university is more suitable and I still cant exactly make up my mind on what to study. At this point in time, its a major junction of my life and I'm not sure which path to take. There's about 6000-7000 applicants for SMU business course each year and only about 700 places are available. It's so competitive! Furthermore, some courses from NUS and NTU require interviews while all courses from SMU requires interview. The interview part is really tricky and I don't know if I'll pull it through. Also, there's like a dozen question marks in my head right now. There's quite a number of courses that I'm interested in. I wanna get a double degree and maybe even a double major. But CAN I get it? CAN I handle it? Like the profs mentioned, it's tough but no pain no gain and its rewarding at the end of 4 years. And there's still my SAT. Comtemplating whether to give it another try. And there's still the scholarships. My chances are not high because of my GP grades. Basically, there's a lot for me to consider right now and hope I'll get them settled.

The path in front of me seem so enigmatic and elusive. Where can I get my confidence and put my foot forward?

Jubilation?

2009-03-06T23:03:00.003+08:00

Oh yea think I forgot to mention that there's one thing pretty good about Tekong is that the scenary from my company quite nice. It overlooks the sea and ferry terminal. During the field camp the sky was literally enshrouded with stars. Haha

A level results...
Honestly, I just felt relieved that it was alright. But still deep down I'm not totally satisfied...
Fuck that shit. LSE...

When I see you, I run out of words to say
I wouldn't leave you cos your that type of girl who make me stay
I never wanna see you cry...

tough week

2009-03-01T18:53:00.003+08:00

Field camp finally over... It was a rough ride. The weather was playing punk with us, like seriously. We were greated by a heavy downpour when we were pitching the basha tents. The soil there was already soft to begin with and the rain only made it worse. The tent pegs kept slipping out the moment we drive them into the ground. Well, we still managed to get the basha tents setup properly in the end. Ground sheets were all filled with mud and most tents were flooded pretty bad cause of poor drainage which we didnt had it properly dugged. But the blame isn't totally on us cause we had zero experience in all these. Then there was the day when we dugged the shellscrape... weather played punk with us yet again. It rained heavily just when we finished digging the shellscrape and right at the point of time where we had to prone in there for some drills. The end result was mud spa out in the wild. I kinda suffered from heat injury that day during the field camp. I guessed I was dehydrated and come to think of it, I didnt really drink up that much that day. Well, the point is drink up more and heat injuries are highly highly fatal especially when one suddenly faints under the hot sun. Not many people survive after fainting. Lucky for me, I only felt dizzy that day and I knew my body well; I fall out just at the appropriate moment. To sum it all up, tough week is over and I've gained much from it :)

I love my music and earphones. They keep me in my own world and the music is just awesome! I watched he's just not that into you and marley & me this week. Marley & me was touching and honestly, I sort of cried during the last part. There used to be this pupppy which was EXACTLY like Marley when he first came to my house... I'm sick yet again. Down with fever and some throat infection. I feel so sleepy all day long... All these maybe the onset of chicken pox sia! Lol one step at a time and see how things go from now.

Over on this side of the wall, I'm trying to break it down
But over the other side of the wall, you keep trying to build it
I cared enough to try and break it down..

Misfortunes...

2009-02-21T23:25:00.002+08:00

F***ing hell, I'm at risk of being infected with chicken box cause of my friend. SABO SIA!!!

F***ing hell, I got confined!!!!!!!!

Lol commanders are all vulgar, uncouth and pervertic. Experience here still not that bad afterall but a pity I don't get to do many things compared to others who are pes A and B. But I'm still enjoying myself here. Field camp will be this coming week and it's something to look forward to. And monday will be having live grenade throws. Cool sia! I think I'll be registering for driving tomorrow and morning run to begin the day with. I'm gonna train and be as fit as those in pes A and B :)

Shaky...

2009-02-15T16:27:00.003+08:00

1630 right now. It's just a couple hours more before I book in. Lol I feel so lost suddenly cos I'll be away again. I guess I'm afraid being there by myself. That feeling kinda suck but I'm brave enough to overcome whatever that may come into my path...

You hang in there...

Full of emotions

2009-02-14T21:03:00.006+08:00

I have so much I want to say and so much I want to share...

Mad - Ne-Yo
Nice song and great lyrics.

Darn it! I'll be booking in tomorrow.

first bookout!

2009-02-14T15:49:00.002+08:00

For 17 days I was long long way from home. Army so far has been alright and some things really bores me now. Lol my reveille timing is 1500hours for today. Last night was fun fun fun. That's all for now. It's already 1607hours and I should'nt be home facing the computer! Its my book out and I gonna have fun.

New phase of my life...

2009-01-27T22:05:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow is 28th Jan, my new phase of life. I'm sure many of my friends know where will I be starting from tomorrow onwards. My bag is packed and come to think of it, you only need to bring a handful of items. There isn't really much to bring along. Lol huge bags are totally redundant. My cousin told me that its every guy's nightmare. Haha I hope it won't be mine. One of my cousins is even a commando sia. Lol so pro. It's all mixed feelings that I'm having right now.

Today ain't smooth cos something happened at home and I don't wanna talk about it. I'm sorry.

And cause of that, I had to ps my friends for dinner. Sorry. I even intended to treat you guys for the farewell dinner. I'll have dinner again, I promise.

Lol I don't like to tower dry, I prefer to air dry! Haha.

Gotta go now. Goodbye people! I'll be back on Valentine's week.
I'll think of you once in a while and in good thoughts...

Time is of essence

2009-01-25T15:33:00.002+08:00

For those who don't know, I usually say time is of essence. I've been pretty busy for last couple of days, studying for SAT and getting all my stuffs ready. I always remember this chinese idiom which goes something like this: time is like a sponge, squeeze it and one will have it. Lol its a direct translation. I've been busy but I still managed to complete all of my tasks. I even managed to make some time for swimming this morning.

It's Lunar New Year Eve already. "...day after tomorrow", "... tomorrow." I think I'll be using these 2 sentence quite frequent during this Chinese New Year.

OO I just realised that there's bride wars sneak preview!! I so wanna watch this movie. Lol many of my friends have been hearing me say this and I thought I won't get a chance to catch it causes its officially out in the cinemas on 29th.

Enervated

2009-01-24T23:00:00.002+08:00

SAT over. I bought all my stuffs over the last couple of days. I literally travelled whole of Singapore today. From Buona Vista, I went to Bukit Batok to get my stuff but before that I went to Jurong for lunch. And I realised the Jurong Point(I don't know what's it called), the one with the ice skating one, had closed down already. The entire building was empty, abandoned and dilapidated. I couldn't really find my way when I was at Bukit Batok. I started asking around but no one seems to know where was it. Lol I even decided to hire a cab to get me there, but it turned out the taxi drivers don't even know where was it. Lucky I found it eventually.
Super tired. I reached home only about 5 plus.

You make it real

2009-01-23T10:03:00.003+08:00

There's so much craziness surrounding me
There's so much going on, it gets hard to breathe
When all my faith is gone, you bring it back to me
You make it real for me

Well I'm not sure of my priorities
I've lost site of where I'm meant to be
And like holy water washing over me
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you baby
You are the only who save me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

When my head is strong but my heart is weak
I'm full of hurricanes and uncertainty
But I can find the words
You teach my heart to speak

Everybody's talking in words
I don't understand
You got to be the only one
Who knows just who I am
And you shine in the distance
I hope I can make it through
Cause the only place that I want to be
Is right back home with you

I guess there's so much more
I have to learn
But if you're here with me
I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere,
Somewhere I can learn

Its really tough

2009-01-21T23:14:00.004+08:00

Everything's so tough.
SAT is hard. **** is hard. **** is hard
Growth forecast been revised to -5% to -1%. Its really a bad situation given the credit crunch and all that. This means that angbao money next week will be much lesser than before. Lol of cos that's not the gist of this. Singapore Budget will be out tomorrow. Drastic time calls for drastic measures.

Enough of the global problems and crisis, I've got my own problems to deal with.
I find its getting harder to breathe...
Who's gonna lend me a hand during this period? It's an ardous journey and I can barely hang in there.

I feel the pain inside. Do you?

All torned up

2009-01-20T21:33:00.002+08:00

Injuries all over. My wrist hurts pretty bad, but luckily I'm still able to hold a pen and write. My shin hurts just as bad and I'm kinda limping when I walk. And my lower back is aching.

I'm so so depressed over that. I have to start all over again!!! Its an ardous journey man. But fret not, I am even more determined this way. Tenacity and doggedness run through every inch of my weary and enervated body.

All torned up...

Getting pek cek

2009-01-19T14:15:00.002+08:00

I was walking home earlier under the sorching sun and then there was the wind which pounded on my face; the wind was really strong. At that moment, I could not feel any of the heat coming from the relentless sun, but I felt as if the weights on my shoulder are being lifted away. How I wish my problems could just be carried away by the wind...

Obama's inauguration is tomorrow and Government Budget out on thursday I think.
In anticipation of what plans are being put in placed to boost the economy.
It's amazing how some(actually its many not some) people can indulge in extravegance one can only dream of. Oprah Winfrey booked a hotel suite for 5 nights which sums up to a total of US$75000. Think about how long it'll take an average person to earn that amount of money. Probably 1-2 years? But yet she can spend that amount of money in 5 nights. Honestly, this aint a big deal in terms of indulgance. We just dont know about it. And if we do know how the filthy rich spend their money, we can be bedazzled. On the other hand, there's also those living in destitute who can barely make ends meet.

CNY in a week's time. CNY for me is no longer the same. Things have took a drastic change. Back then, plethora of delicacies from all over the world would have flooded the entire house. They're all air flown by business associates and partners. From abalones to lobsters to scallops. You name it! Lol and the abalones are not those in cans. They are the fresh ones and no one actually knows how to really cook them.

But all these are of insignificance. What's more important is that the whole family can come together...

2009-01-18T22:41:00.003+08:00

"Sometimes you put a wall up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down."

Ouch...

530am...

Whatever...

2009-01-17T23:23:00.003+08:00

I must say things are not at all smooth right now. Everything's just screwed up. I feel really depressed right now...

It tears me up and you cant feel anything.
You know nothing.
You're not at all appreciative...

Live your life to the fullest

2009-01-15T16:04:00.005+08:00

playlist 3

They say that when one is ill, one should go visit a doctor because early detection can save one from a lot of trouble. But what if one is down with something which cant be cured, not even the slightest treatments or solutions are available? What will you do in such a situation?

Doctors are still working to understand RP and find better treatments. Right now, there is no cure for RP.

Well...

2009-01-10T21:20:00.004+08:00

playlist1

Its just me and the two dogs at home. They're definitely much better than those in the black pit where vermins of the world lurk. Like it or not, that's how things work.

Nothing is forever. Like the enthralling fireworks, it can only last that long.
Enjoy.

pictures of fireworks during the countdown. Lol I wasn't there though.

when and where was this taken? I don't even know.

These were taken on new year's eve. Pity I only joined them at 2am. Cos I was at siloso.

:( :( :(

2009-01-09T23:39:00.004+08:00

Crap...Why????????

I got hypnotized and mesmorized; I'm hyperventilating.

2009-01-08T23:09:00.004+08:00

Gym was simply shiok!
I just watched victoria's secrets. The models are all drop dead gorgeous!

I've so much up in my head right now.
Troubled...

Results for Marcus Chew

At a Glance

• Works hard, puts in long hours and keeps busy with work.

• Punctual, completes work on time.

• Focused on tasks, persists until job is done.

• Detailed, meticulous and observant, quick to pick out abnormalities.

• Objective, but may appear detached.

• Quiet and reserved, prefers own company.

• Concerned with prestige, recognition, rank and reputation.

• Sees people as nice and friendly, not comfortable to wheel and deal.

• Practical, prefers to build on ideas rather than generate them.

• Less expressive verbally.

• Needs clear and thorough instructions, slow to act when uncertain.

While at Work

Diligence and discipline are characteristics of Mr Chew's work attitude. He is often pre-occupied with the tasks at hand. As he derives satisfaction from being immersed in work and thrives on being involved, expect Mr Chew to put in long and extended hours at work.

Time is a major concern for Mr Chew. He is frequently punctual and even early for appointments. When time is critical, he moves quickly and acts promptly. Having a sense of urgency means that Mr Chew pushes to get things done when there is a deadline and allocates time properly when planning or organising activities. He can be depended upon to get work done on schedule.

Mr Chew persists with a task until it is completed. Determination, commitment and perseverance are his strength; hence he can be depended upon to meet work obligations. Mr Chew is suitable for long-term projects because he is sufficiently focused to see them through completion.

Mr Chew is likely to be quality-conscious and achievement-oriented. He is motivated to produce work that is of a high standard. He is observant, quick to spot errors and critical where work is concerned. He is likely to be meticulous, careful and pre-occupied with detail.

Mr Chew is an objective person who is impartial and rational. He speaks factually and often does not involve his own feelings and emotions. He may sometimes be perceived as distant or detached.

Although Mr Chew is usually a sympathetic person, he may at times be selective about being involved in the personal problems of people.

Being a shy, quiet and reserved person, Mr Chew prefers his own company and feels awkward when meeting people for the first time. In social gatherings, he tends to stay in the background.

Mr Chew selectively forms strong bonds with people although these bonds may not be very deep.

Mr Chew is moderately serious about his responsibilities and selectively takes ownership of his work.

Mr Chew is concerned with position and status. He cares about how people view him. Prestige, quality, rank and reputation are important to him. He is likely to be brand-conscious and would attach significance to status symbols. He takes pride in his appearance.

Mr Chew sees people as friendly, reliable and honest. He is trusting and believes what people say. He tends to be unsuspecting of people.s behaviour and motives. He is uncomfortable when he has to wheel and deal.

Mr Chew's leadership qualities are moderate and he is sometimes able to get the support of people.

Intellectual matters do not interest Mr Chew. He is more concerned with practical issues than abstract theories. Mr Chew prefers to talk about useful and workable solutions than discuss hypotheses and concepts. He is more likely to build on ideas rather than generate them.

Mr Chew puts in effort to plan ahead some of the times. He may at times not be as detailed in his planning.

WORK
A Hard Work 16
B Time 16
C Finish Job 16
P Good Work 17

RELATIONS
D Affection 10
E Empathy 13
F Sociability 10
G Loyalty 14

CONTROL
H Dominance 15
I Status 19
J Politics 7
K Leadership 11

THOUGHT
L Abstraction 7
M Planning-Organizing 13
N Exposition 9
O Tolerance Ambiguity 7

'Brave soldier'

2009-01-07T23:43:00.003+08:00

What a joke! My friend said something to me.
'I think she felt my ************ that's why she is smiling brightly'
That really made me laugh. Lol probably no one understands a single word about what I'm talking here.

I watched rec late afternoon, the one in spanish. It was really great, no wonder it won so many awards. I also watched Get Smart, starring Anne Hathaway. She's the one who acted in Princess Diaries. I think she's pretty, elegant and feminine. Haha but she seems 'Russiany' and 'Frenchy' to me, even though she's actually from America. If I'm not wrong she has French anchestry.

2009-01-07T12:36:00.001+08:00

cjddk -

Phew..

2009-01-06T11:46:00.002+08:00

I just came back from the gym and I almost died there, like seriously. Lol
I was there by myself and I was doing bench press, no spotter to help me. Haha then on the 2nd set and not even the last rep, I cant lift the barbell (17.5kg) up. But lucky, the safety catch was there. LOL if not I won't be here blogging already. Before this I wasn't using the safety catch and I was quite surprised I can't even complete the 2nd set.

K is going army tomorrow. I'll be going down to send him off and maybe after that I'll go swimming. Hesitant about going swimming lately cos of the rashes on my body.

My whole body feels like jelly right now, gonna collapse any minute...

hmmm...

2009-01-05T01:20:00.003+08:00

Oh dear, I really cant remember what I did lately. Lol I vaguely remembered going to the airport to study my SAT, supposedly with my friend but I got pang seh in the end. Some people just dont feel sheepished about it!!! Anyway, I only stayed there for a few hours and then I went to gym. Haha I'm vehement about it. No idea why.

Hmmm... what am I gonna do tomorrow??? The thing is I'm kinda busy tomorrow and I don't know what am I gonna do about it. Lol stupid J suggested going sjs and that my whole body itch, and now I'm super eager to go there. Class gathering tomorrow. The thought of travelling all the way there simple turns me off. Haha transport is expensive know! I can't decide to go for gym or studying at the airport tomorrow morning. Both are main priorities on my list and I can't decide. Let's see what time I wake up tomorrow and I shall decide from there.

I only have 3 more weeks left and I have so much yet to be done...

You'll be safe here

2009-01-03T12:34:00.001+08:00

Nobody knows
Just why we're here
Could it be fate
Or random circumstance
At the right place
At the right time
Two roads intertwine

And if the universe conspired
To meld our lives
To make us
Fuel and fire
Then know
Where ever you will be
So too shall I be

Close your eyes
Dry your tears
'Coz when nothing seems clear
You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You'll be safe here

When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here

In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You'll be safe here

When no one understands
I'll believe
You'll be safe here

Put your heart in my hands
You'll be safe here

Happy Birthday sis!

2009-01-02T22:50:00.003+08:00

Today's my sister's birthday. I had lunch with her at Seoul Garden cos she wanted to eat BBQ. Before that we both went to see the doctor. Then I went to get the vocab book at kinokuniya for my friend and I headed to orchard to meet Julian cos he wanted me to bring him to FJ Benjamin for job interview. But to my dismay, their office is no longer where it used to be. Lol I made both of us waste of time going all the way there. Sorry. We then shopped around and went home shortly. Lots of sales going on but yet there isn't many shoppers around. Economy is bad I guess.

That picture is made by my friend. Thanks very much.

Happy New Year 2009 Euphoric!!!

2009-01-01T23:31:00.004+08:00

Yay! It's 2009!
New year and a brand new beginning. I'm ecstatic, jubilated, elated, delighted, jovial, beaming, jocular, thrilled, exhilarated, euphoric, overjoyed, exultant and I can walk on air now!

Countdown was absolutely great at siloso with K,J and N. We were the first few to enter cos we reached there at 730pm. Lol kinda early actually but the wait was well worth it. Dance was fun and the music were all fabulous except for some which I thought it really was poor. Haha but who am I to criticise the Djs afterall they are world renowned. It's just a matter of personal preference. A pity we didn't went to the foam party. We all thought it was troublesome to go through the hassle of bathing. Haha I took photo with 'my wife' and my friends all thought I was merely kidding when I said I wanted to take a photo with her. LOL than shortly after, they all realised they had regreted not taking photos so we all started walking around to take photos with girls. LOL not that we're perverted, it's just for the fun of it.

After the time at siloso, my friends all went home. It was pretty much my fault that they all went home early. Sorry. If we ever go there again next time, I promised I won't leave early. Cos I had to go meet my bowling friends at Rendezvous Hotel. Lol I didn't countdown with them and I literally went there for some shelter and a place to sleep. Haha our money spend on the tickets to siloso not worth it cos we all left too early! But never mind we all enjoyed ourselves very much during that time. And I'm a good boy. I didn't drink there, all I had was the one free drink I was entitled to. Beginning to wonder if I'm allergic to alcohol or is it just my sensitive skin to dirty carpets and linens? No idea about this cos I seem to have a rash everytime I drink.

We celebrated Charles' birthday at the hotel and they all waited for me to be back which I didn't know about it. So I was pretty shocked when almost all of them came down to the lift lobby to bring me up to the room. We didn't do much at the hotel cos everyone seem to be tired and some literally drop dead on the bed after the cutting of the cake. Haha we were supposed to play games through the night but it turn out almost all fell asleep. Lol I slept on the floor can with no pillow and blanket. I almost freezed and Y was saying she found it hot and was sweating the whole night while on the bed. Oh man I was like 'why didn't you tell me earlier? We could have switched positions and I need not shiver on the floor. Haha but it was alright sleeping on the floor without the pillow, except for the fact that I quivered throughout the night cos it was simply too cold! We checked out the next morning and I was first awoken by S at 830am cos of her blocked nose and the toilet. Lol my nose was also blocked and too lazy to get up for tissue. But in the end I did got up for the tissue after S got up. She back to sleep and seeing everyone asleep, I went back to sleep again. Lol exactly one hour later, I woke up again cos someone was at the door for room service or sorts. A woked up and got to the door. Haha J said she did some weird things at night. LOL LOL LOL
HAHA then some weird things happened to me after I replaced A on the bed. What a joke! While checking out the next morning, I took a few photos with them at the lobby cos I didn't take any with them earlier in the day.

I went home after that and decided to have a nap, then my mum woke me up. Lol so I used the computer for a while cos my family went out. OOOOooo it was like great cos I can have some peace and a nice nap!!! Haha but I initially wanted to study my SAT or just go out, but I realised I was too tired already.

Well, that's how I spent my New year's eve and new year.

23 days to my SAT and 27 days to army.
Who wanna come send me off on the 28th Jan?

Happy New Year to all! And I'm still kinda high after the dance and music at siloso!
Photos will be up next time. Gonna watch my dvd now.
Cheers!

Put it aside

2008-12-31T01:08:00.001+08:00

It's gonna be real exciting tomorrow, can't wait.

Siloso beach party!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ouch!

2008-12-30T21:42:00.002+08:00

Wa my whole body is aching. I swam 36 laps today. Lol my shoulder and back hurts right now. My back hurts not cos of the swimming but rather the reverse crunches I did in the gym the day before. Haha I never push myself very hard la. These are ok only and I could really push myself more if I want to.

Now, let's see. Tomorrow's 31st December and its new year's eve! Wonder how my friends are gonna celebrate them. Time simply flies, one year went by just like that. Full of ups and down I must say. I've been clearing my stuff lately and when I looked at some of the photos, it really brings back great memories with the people around me. I've seen how myself, the people and things change. Change for the better? I don't really know, but hopefully things change for the better.

I was feeling okay while typing this post, but I'm damn exasperated now.
Why...
Why...
Why...

Nice day

2008-12-28T22:48:00.002+08:00

I fell asleep while reading the book. Lol too boring I guess. Haha the book wasn't boring, I was just tired cos I slept at 3 plus last night. I went to get a new pair of spectacle for use in the army and I went running despite the overcast sky. Indeed, it was ominous but thank goodness it didn't rain. I ran about 4km today and I could still feel the muscle ache from soccer that day. Oh and I did some clearing up of stuff on my computer.

My sis is back from hong kong. Lol my mum was so worried after hearing the strike at luggage section. Why in the world are strikes and riots occuring? Crap la if not for the unrest at bangkok airport, I would have been able to bring back loads of stuff. Oh well, not going anywhere ain't that bad afterall :)

Kinda sick

2008-12-28T01:19:00.003+08:00

Slept throughout the afternoon after coming home. I was so lethargic to do anything. Feeling a little sick though. My nose is like a running tap. Lol its really that bad.
Dinner at Aston and I'm trying very hard to read the pile of books. Lol I'll finish it eventually. It's just a matter of when. And my whole body is aching espeically my legs. I can hardly walk around properly.

I will be going tomorrow to get my things and it's gonna be a great day. Don't ask me why, I just know it :)

Oh man!!!

2008-12-26T22:43:00.002+08:00

Soccer in the morning was fine. Just felt my legs aching today cos of gym the day before. Hopefully it'll be fine by tomorrow.

Today did some studying for my SAT. Lol its the second time doing it though. Getting kinda worried cos I just realised some sections I do pretty bad. Gonna work on these areas and hopefully I can score well on 24th Jan. Im aiming for >2000. Hope its within my reach.

My friend called today. Pretty surprised and I just felt dreary hearing things like that. Don't worry, I'm sure you can hang in there.

Oh yea and I went to watch Australia with a friend. It was a long movie I must say. I thought it was an okay movie, with some scenes which melted and softened my heart. Actress nicole kidman was pretty and she was kinda bimbo in the beginning during the movie where she was a typical upper class lady back in nineteenth century. Hugh Jackman was cool and he had the cowboy look. Fairy tale ending...

Off for some food and back to studying

Fantastic!

2008-12-25T01:07:00.003+08:00

Today been great day. Great dinner with awesome food.
Thanks to audrey and her family. Even though I feel really pai seh for troubling them. We later went to church. Such a great friend to have. A million thanks.

Tomorrow going to the gym. Gonna make it up for the session I missed on tuesday by working double thanks to someone.

Met a few people here and there lately. Lol I saw my secondary school friend at downtown last week when I went to WWW. And today I saw yvonne and her boyfriend at the airport. I saw di qiang and liwei on the bus while on the way home. Great to see familar faces.

I just felt great today!

The truth is...

2008-12-24T01:37:00.005+08:00

Settle it once and for all.

Its ugly, dirty and dark. Can you ever take the truth?

There's too many left unsaid... There's no turning back now

2008-12-22T10:07:00.001+08:00

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

Insomnia, You caught me completely off guard.

2008-12-21T02:28:00.005+08:00

Been a fool, girl I know
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time, you'll change your mind
Now looking back I wish I could rewind

Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's too late to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I have made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye...

How stupid

2008-12-20T19:54:00.002+08:00

Gym in the morning and I only left there at noon. I pushed myself too hard today. Some very stupid thoughts came into my mind today and it was something really foolish. Thank goodness nothing happened...

Heavy heart...

2008-12-19T22:16:00.004+08:00

A strangled smile fell from your face
What kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
There's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together
Whatever it takes

On big budget now. How pathetic.
First to reach, last to leave.

:(

2008-12-19T00:11:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling really really really bad right now.

If only there was a second chance... I'll do whatever it takes.

we've run out of words, we've run out of time
we've run out of reasons
it's too late...
it's over this time...

The past is great

2008-12-18T19:12:00.002+08:00

what you looking at?

peek a boo! now you see me!

let's play

time to sleep

I wanna play

grumps...

I'm stuck

pacifier will keep me quiet, the tapes in my hand will keep u quiet

balloons seem to be much larger than me

U want a ride?

yum yum!

super yummy!

I ain't done eating yet

I love eating

My birthday cake

4 years old

check out my shades

I love ice cream!!!

How sexy!

Can you spot me? I'm the smallest there

I was clearing stuffs in my house when I found the photo albums.

change of plans

2008-12-15T23:21:00.002+08:00

I didnt go for gym today cos I just realised something. Im supposed to hit the gym every monday, wednesday and friday. But I'll be going WWW on wednesday(perhaps some mahjong as well) and bowling on friday. So decided to change my schedule to tuesday, thursday and saturday. I went swimming instead and swimming in the rain ain't that bad just that the water was literally freezing when I first get into the water. I went to get my stuffs dry cleaned and pants for alteration. I even cooked dinner for today. Lol cooking kinda fun. I cooked 3dishes and with my mum by my side telling me what to do. Of course, it tasted good. No doubt about that. Haha

Lol talking about mahjong, been playing quite often during chalets and all that. It was kinda boring sitting in front of the tiles hours after hours.

Part1
g-r-a-c-e says:
lol

g-r-a-c-e says:
u organise la

g-r-a-c-e says:
jan still having chalet not

g-r-a-c-e says:
i damn sian

g-r-a-c-e says:
jan first 2 weeks i should be free

₪【☆Marcus☆】₪ says:
haha

₪【☆Marcus☆】₪ says:
chalet book where my dear?

₪【☆Marcus☆】₪ says:
need $$$$$$

₪【☆Marcus☆】₪ says:
ask jason leh

₪【☆Marcus☆】₪ says:
book that one for his bday

g-r-a-c-e says:
YA

g-r-a-c-e says:
i wan go

g-r-a-c-e says:
lol

₪【☆Marcus☆】₪ says:
u give me money i book lo

₪【☆Marcus☆】₪ says:
lol

g-r-a-c-e says:
sure...

g-r-a-c-e says:
ur money is my money

g-r-a-c-e says:
so u hv money le

g-r-a-c-e says:
go book

g-r-a-c-e says:
NOW

g-r-a-c-e says:
lol

Part2
g-r-a-c-e says:
anw, u still using ur dopod hp

₪【☆Marcus☆】₪ says:
yea

₪【☆Marcus☆】₪ says:
y

g-r-a-c-e says:
cos if u still using tt hp means we got couple hp la

g-r-a-c-e says:
cute right

g-r-a-c-e says:
LOL

₪【☆Marcus☆】₪ says:
LOL LOL LOL

₪【☆Marcus☆】₪ says:
lol lol stop stop i cannot take it ah

g-r-a-c-e says:
LOL

g-r-a-c-e says:
cannot stop laughing right

g-r-a-c-e says:
me too

g-r-a-c-e says:
hahahahahahaha

All these are so so so funny. I just cant stop laughing.

Tomorrow morning gym with nicky. Hope he won't be late cos I need someone to assist me in benchpress and squats.

I wanna escape from it all...

2008-12-14T21:01:00.004+08:00

I once posted something about being drunk and no amount of alcohol is gonna reduce any of my sorrows. Yea I'm right about it. Getting drunk only makes yourself suffer from vomitting and headaches. Afterall, it's just a form of delusion. Problems would not just go away. I still have to face it the following day. It's back to reality. I wanna sleep, lie in bed and not wake up. This is when I really feel free from any troubles. But then again, I will not allow myself to live in such constant delusion. At the end of it, it's still me who's gonna face all of it.

Woke up at 11 plus today. I was supposed to wake up at 6am and go for a run, but too bad it was raining. Compensated my morning run in the evening at bedok reservoir. It was a bad day for running cos it was all muddy and flooded. I'm gonna head for the gym tomorrow. Drop me an sms if anyone feels like joining me. I'll be going there in the morning, say 8am?

Reality

2008-12-14T00:03:00.002+08:00

It's back to reality at the end of the day. I'm still feeling troubled over what had happened back at home the day before. I really need to let my mum stop worrying about me.

Once was enough. It ain't gonna work this way... it just ain't worth it...

You see, it wasn't enough that night.
If I ever let you go, there will be no one.

new skin

2008-12-13T23:18:00.001+08:00

Changed the skin. But generally quite similar.
Lol my blog now cannot be right clicked, cannot copy and paste. Haha

2008-12-13T21:50:00.001+08:00

73 words

Speed test

You know nothing...

2008-12-13T12:32:00.002+08:00

You know absoutely nothing about it...

Clearing lots of stuff on my computer. Lol realised I had some photos which I wanna upload but forgot about it and I had so many songs on the computer which I never even listen to it once. Gonna go for a run later, just waiting for the sun. The weather ain't bad right now, I wanna run under the hot sun for today. Been a while since I am under the sun.

took this while studying for A levels

my friend drew this. Its nice. Some people just have the artistic talent.

1000pieces jigsaw. This one glows in the dark and my sis did this. Its in my room and its beautiful at night.

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-12-13T00:44:00.003+08:00

OH CRAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!
I didnt expect that. And it wasnt supposed to be played at all. It caught me by surprise. Gonna be watchful now.

OH dear.. I think I should switch to livejournal.

Sweet!!!

2008-12-12T22:55:00.003+08:00

Lol last night was the sweetest thing that ever happen! Right at that moment I felt alive again.

Surprise surprise, the girls said they didnt eat marshmallow which tasted like those I cooked. Haha
Watched 2 movies today, twilight and the day the earth stood still. Both was quite nice. I felt really hungry today cos I didn't really had my lunch and when I could finally have my dinner at 8+pm, the ulcers just spoilt my appetite. Haven't been able to eat properly for a few days. Gym in the morning was great and don't know why, I just felt good after exercising. Lol what a rare occasion.
Oh yeah and I missed my stop in the morning cos somethings were in my mind and had to walk quite a distance. Stupid nicky was like 1hr late and not surprised to see familar faces at the gym.
LOL and I'm too lazy to take a shower right now cos I just feel like sitting down listening to the music. But I'm definitely not the unyhgenic kind of person. I even bathe in the morning before going to gym and my mum was like 'why are you wasting my water now when you are gonna bathe again when your back from the gym later?' Haha it's a habit, or more like a routine. Must always bathe before stepping foot out of the house. Alright, that's about all. Here's some photos. I didn't take much cos I wasn't really in the mood, something happened at home.

trying to hide away from the camera

waiting for the caterer

heart shape frame using the hands. quite nice actually.

group photo

All is set.

2008-12-12T12:08:00.003+08:00

I'm all set and determined, single-minded, strong-willed, resolute, unflinching, unwavering, unfaltering, strong-minded, steadfast, purposeful, bent on, dogged, earnest, mean business, staunch, committed, devoted, indefatigable, pertinacious.

2008-12-12T00:54:00.003+08:00

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river, and it made me complete

Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old, time is running short, and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired, and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

And if you have a minute, why don't we go
talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

And if you have a minute, why don't we go
talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go?

Somewhere only we know...

Right here, right now, my heart is bleeding...

Do you understand???

2008-12-12T00:39:00.002+08:00

Bowling outing wasnt able to make me happy afterall. Its just another outing, nothing much in particular. The problem lie with me.

I think eventually we learn to define happiness for ourselves on our own terms, in spite of the pain that other people have caused us...
Happiness, its definitely out of my dictionary.

A good test of a person's character is his behaviour when he is wrong

It all boils down to nothing...

Bowling outing

2008-12-11T10:18:00.002+08:00

Going for bowling outing later on. Hope its gonna be fun.

Im so in love with this song just dance and insomnia. It just makes me wanna dance with the music.

Lonesome, miserable

2008-12-10T22:01:00.002+08:00

I'll probably be going to the siloso beach party during countdown for 2009, it all depends who's turning up. Lol

SMS

2008-12-09T22:33:00.002+08:00

My phone failed me again. Lol sms always dont get delivered. Its getting on my nerves!!!

I went to a few places today and walked quite a bit. I bought a book for SAT and its something to keep my occupied for now. Haha and I'm looking for protein and amino acid supplements right now. I'll out in the gym working out.

2008-12-09T00:02:00.002+08:00

Sitting around with absolutely nothing to do. I seem to be living a solitary life.
The rest simply doesnt matter, does it? I guess that's the way things are and will always remain; nothing much can be done afterall.

Happy
–adjective
1. delighted, pleased, or glad, as over a particular thing: to be happy to see a person.
2. characterized by or indicative of pleasure, contentment, or joy: a happy mood; a happy frame of mind.

You can get the meaning of happy from any dictionary. I wanna go back at least 10 years from now. Cos that's the time when I'm still a kid or baby. It's really a period where there's nothing to fret about. A fresh state of mind with the innocuous smile which simply entice the attention of everyone.

When was the last time I really felt happy? I don't know. Even when A levels are over, I aint exactly happy. Prom that day was fun, but I didnt exactly felt happy. Happiness has been something which is out of my dictionary for a long time and it probably gonna be like this in time to come...

I feel like crap right now and no amount of booze will ever drown what's in me

Prom was great (Part II)

2008-12-06T00:07:00.002+08:00

PHOTOS!!!

prom king

prom queen

beverly, prom queen nominee

beverly, prom queen nominee

jasmine

wei chong

wei chong, di qiang

eugene, wei chong

szejun

di qiang

prom queen

catherine

grace

prom queen, jason

jonathan and the other 2 clowns

audrey

jason, daniel (check out his hair, COOLEST!!!)

eugene

kwang wei

alvin

eugene

liwei

jason

the class

grace

jason, diqiang

the guys

jason

half the class

jason

dont know what's her name

janice

the class

hafi

nicky

kwang wei, soo boon

soo boon, jason, benedict

jean

audrey, jason

liyi

the guys (united nation)

class

ridwan

okay crap, I forgot his name. OH I REMEMBER NOW!
alan

kenneth

minxiang, jason, benedict

WA, all these took me like hours to get it up here. Sorry, I didnt rotate all the photos to the right position and some has red eye. There's too many to edit.

Prom was great (Part I)

2008-12-05T05:41:00.003+08:00

ooo I took many photos with many people especially the prom queensssss. NICE!!!!!
She is so FUCKING HOT and PRETTY.

Lol our post prom party was fun too.

Photos will be uploaded soon and in the mean time, its time for me to dream about my prom queen o.0

Its coming

2008-12-04T16:11:00.003+08:00

Prom is just a few hours away.

My jacket, pants, belt, shirt, tie, v neck, shoes and watch are all set. Its just a matter of which will I be wearing later.

Prom

2008-12-04T01:41:00.000+08:00

At least something to look forward tomorrow
ANd I still cant decide what to wear. LOL

HAPPY BIRTHDAY???

2008-12-04T00:33:00.004+08:00

I spent my birthday sleeping...
I felt really sad today.

well, at least someone made me this
*removed*
it aint that bad afterall. thx v much.
lol removed cos its not for sharing, for my own viewing pleasure only!!! haha

Because...

2008-12-03T10:53:00.002+08:00

Staring out in the rain with a heavy heart
Its the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer, somewhere
I couldn't see tthat it was right there
But now I know what I didn't know
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again
Cos of you I made it through every storm
What is life? What's the use if you're killing time
I'm so glad I found an angel, someone
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I want to fly looking in your eyes
Because you live
There's a reasin why I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you're given me always
Because you live girl
My world has everything I need to survive
Because you live
I live...

Damn it hurts

2008-11-30T16:47:00.003+08:00

I can barely move my arms. Muscle ache very bad. Its so bad I cant take off my shirt.

And I still cant decide which one to wear for prom. Its like this thurday. So fast. Oh well, this isnt exactly the most important thing...

bored

2008-11-29T00:57:00.001+08:00

jason proposed to me a deal which clearly benefits him. Totally dumb idea. Definitely no deal.

That aint the main point. Who's gonna be my date on wed?

fun time

2008-11-28T22:05:00.005+08:00

Chalet's over. I definitely enjoyed myself, but I'm not too sure about everyone.

Day 1
I reached whitesands at 1.30 and helped with the food. Only audrey and qianwen were there. Grace, danny and jason came shortly after and we later took cabs down to our chalet. It was rather remote, but the facilities were good. I think its worth the money. As mentioned, the downside is its accessibility. The rest was fine, especially so when there were 4 bedrooms. We rent dvd player and mahjong set. We played mahjong the entire day till about 7plus when we ordered pizzas. Bbq was cancelled since there was a lack of people to help out with the preparing of food.
The rest of the people started flowing in. YaKai and company went out for dinner at elias mall without informing us when we already ordered the pizzas. Worse of all, we kept 3 pizzas for them and they only finish 2 of them. We shoudlnt have kept the pizzas for them cos I was still fucking hungry. Threw 1 whole pizza away cos it turned bad. What the fuck man!!! We later watched 300, exorcism of emily rose and rush hour 3. By the time we finished watching it was about 330am I think. I went to sleep after that and I heard the girls continued playing mahjong. What the hell, never wake me up to play.

Day 2
I think I woke up quite early. I woke up at about 10am and I started disturbing all those who were sleeping. Lol I walked around and couldnt find anything to do, so I found my fun by waking people up. I cant remember who was the first. I think Jason was first. Haha aiksiang just woke up when I enter their rooms. I pulled jason's blanket and nudge him continuously. And finally, he woke up... BUT, he jumped up, ran into my room, locked the door and CONTINUE SLEEPING! Lol so I found my next target in my another room. I did the same for yenkenn and it took me quite a while to wake him up. Haha here comes the fun. I climbed from the balcony into my room where Jason was STILL sleeping and he had the shock of his life how I managed to get in. He was like shell shocked. The girls woke up thereafter and Jason AGAIN CONTINUED SLEEPING. They almost knocked down the door just to wake jason up. LOL.
We went to fish n co express for our breakfast cum lunch before heading to escape. The class split into two at this point cos some felt it was boring at escape. We all have different interests, so never mind. We cannot go WWW cos of someone. Anyway, the girls, jason and me went escape, while the rest went to watched movie. Escape was fun sia. And pathetic jason lost to me at the kart racing. Lol he suck at driving. We went to haunted house and I barely see any shit in there cos it was too dark. But lucky for me, jason was there to guide me through. Lol perhaps I had balls of steel or I was too preoccupied trying to figure out where I was going, I wasnt the least bit frightened at all. Haha. Viking ship was next and we sat twice for this. We experienced maximum acceleration at the highest point where g=9.81 and maximum velocity at equilibrum position. My butt was off the seat at maximum displacement. Lol it started raining soon after when we queued for the wet n wild. It rained for about 15mins before stopping but that didnt stop our fun. The rides soon resumed when the rain stopped as we dashed to wet n wild and got ourselves wet again. Took a few photos here and there. We played the throwing game, hoping to win the biggest prize for qianwen as her belated birthday gift. But so sorry, we didnt managed to win it. Benedict and company got stranded outside the chalet cos the key I gave them couldnt open the door. Lol sorry, I didnt know that was for the master bedroom. They later went to played LAN and settled their dinner themselves while the 5 of us ate chicken rice at E hub. We went back to chalet and bathe before watching dvds again. Few hours later, some came back and show us the fucked up face. The remote controls for air con were kept in an attempt to control the utilities bill cos it was rocketing. But I had no idea how Yakai and company managed to on the air con without asking us for the remotes. Either we left out one of the remotes or some ass clown took it from audrey's bag.
I cant remember which day we played cards and I kinda lost quite a bit and was kinda drunk due to the forfeit. I think this is the second night. Forgot to mentioned, jason helped us hitch a ride on a lorry and dropped us outside elias mall. Lol it was quite funny but I'm gonna spare the details. That's my first time is a lorry.

Day 3
Woked up quite late cos I slept at 6am. Lol I went home to get something and had a bit of sleep before heading to audrey's house to get the charcoal. Damn it was so heavy. From there I cabbed down to the chalet cos everyone was waiting for me to start the fire for bbq. But, like waste my time to get the charcoal cos it was wet and it just couldnt burn. So we use the stove to heat the charcoal. Bbq was pretty alright and aiksiang came. The birthday boy left early and I didnt managed to eat the birthday cake. Anyway, I ended up with a fight with jason later. They say my face was like damn angry and it was due to me drinking earlier on. Lol but I didnt really drink much. It was only like half a plastic cup. But things was alright shortly after. Kenneth and company came and helped us finished the food. Lol bunch of funny guys really. Daniel later left with them and there was only a handful of us who stay over. The rest of us played cards and some games. And I always end up losing and doing STUPID forfeits. All of them sabo me sia. Lol we played till next morning and only slept at about 6 or 7+ am.

Day 4
My ipod alarm failed to wake me up cos I was simply too tired. Lol guys came knocking on our doors before I could wake up. We cleaned up the place and checked out. That's the end of our chalet.AND CHECK OUT THE VIDEO

CHALET!!!

2008-11-24T00:03:00.002+08:00

Finished packing my stuffs for chalet. I cant wait for tomorrow cos I'll be ****************** and meeting my friends for chalet in the afternoon.
Its gonna be FUN!!!

It's fun

2008-11-23T12:34:00.002+08:00

Bowling competition in the morning and like got scolded by my mum over small little things. I should not have asked her to fetch me then I wont get scolded for nothing. Anyway managed to get 3rd position for team event. Yay!
First game 129. I was fine for the first 5 frames, managed to close all until someone came. lol, I just take too long to warm up. Hit a 196,17+,17+ for the subsequent 3 games. And the stupid handicap of -10 pins for J2s. If we didnt had the handicap, we would have gotten 2nd instead. We only lost to them by 14pins after deducting the handicap. My forearm still hurts from friday and maybe that's something to blame for my lousy performance. Haha truth is, it really does affected my game. I can barely have the strenght to release the ball properly. I need more consistent shots for my first throw. My sparing is fairly alright, just the occasional miss. But if I really do concentrate, my spares are okay. What I really need now is for my arm to recover and practice for a more accurate first throw. I lunched with shun xiong at the 'usual' coffeeshop opposite the policepost. But he said he dont usually eat at that coffeeshop. Anyway, I had a nice talk with him.

Rushed home after lunch and I thought I was late. Lol but reached audrey's house at about 3.30, definitely before 4pm and she was not even home yet.
Surprise party wasnt a surprise. What a pity. But it was something sweet and touching. Haha but I think all who was there had their share of fun.
But I was kinda moody because...
I left her house at about 10+ together with the girls and I accompanied them home. This is how my saturday turn out :)

Wow

2008-11-20T22:09:00.001+08:00

You will soar on wings like eagles,
You will run and not grow weary.

Sometimes...

2008-11-20T02:42:00.002+08:00

Do you know that
sometimes, people write down things that they do not say..
sometimes, people say things which they dont really mean it.
sometimes, people do things on a moment of impulse.
sometimes, people promise things which they are unable to fulfill.
sometimes, people end up with regrets.
And sometimes all I need is a little hope..

I dream things that never were, and say why not.

Almost 3am and I still cant sleep..

To all those lost souls who have forgotten to believe in the immensity of love.
Are you one of the lost souls?

That is cute

2008-11-20T00:43:00.002+08:00

My friend's mum is totally cute.

I'll finish watching OTH season 5 by tonight. I think its a great show.

Received a call and I rushed for bowling. Helping my friend to replace him for tournament. Bad choice to ask me cause its been months since I last played. A total of 4 games. 13* 15* 18* 17*
average of 161.
I think its pretty alright considering I didnt played for so long. I only started getting warmed up at the second game. Haha
Craving for bowling all of a sudden. Terence says he's gonna organise bowling sometime soon I suppose.

Okay I always forget what I wanna say. That's all for now..

That's how I roll

2008-11-19T01:08:00.003+08:00

So we went kbox today. And basically, the girls were going crazy screaming all day. lol serve them right for having a hoarse voice. haha kkkkkkkkk
It was pretty fun with me n jason blasting the music really really really loud. lol I can still feel the music in my head. Haha its been great today.

Dinner at east coast with the class and treat from Mr Kua. Thx for the dinner. Lol it was more like supper actually cause we started eating only at 9++. Anyway, it was great too. Haha 3 didnt turn up and finally Im not one of the 3(been missing out on class outings quite often).

Needa get prom outfit ready. There isnt much time to get them. I aready have in mind what Im gonna wear. Its only a matter of money right now. Lol hopefully I can straigthen things out.

Class chalet coming up next week. Its gonna be of much anticipation and Im sure its something I'd looked forward to. And there's something on sat.

Here comes another trouble. Should I take SAT? If I do I need to register by 3 Dec and the test date is 24 Jan. It costs about $100+. Its not a matter of money, but its a matter of whether it is worthwhile taking it cause I dont wanna waste time and effort on something which is useless.

My birthday's coming and is it still something to look forward to? I dont know.

Pretty tired right now. A good night's sleep perhaps?

fickle, capricious, indecisive

2008-11-18T11:53:00.002+08:00

we going escape, we going pool, we going kbox..
lol which one is it??????
Now I dun feel like going out of my house anymore. LOL

A levels are over

2008-11-18T10:39:00.001+08:00

Last paper finally over. But it seems this isnt the long awaited day for me.
There's something else Im looking forward to...

It's beautiful

2008-11-17T02:04:00.002+08:00

When ass meets face. It just aint perfect.

No more nice guy. No more.

That's a beautiful story.

2008-11-17T00:27:00.001+08:00

Your an idiot. And Im just acting like a child. But the difference is, I know my actions are silly.

Last day of studying

2008-11-16T23:09:00.003+08:00

It's gonna be last day of studying and it's all over.

Lol they are all bitches. This is so funny.
One Tree Hill Season 06 Episode 07

:(

2008-11-16T10:13:00.003+08:00

*Removed*

I need to get drunk and I mean really really really drunk...

Shed no tears

2008-11-16T01:23:00.004+08:00

A tiring day for me, especially for my legs. slept late and woke up early duno cos of who. Haha. Just kidding.
A levels seem all over for me. Haha last paper on tues. Hopefully all goes well and when the time comes, I wanna be proud of myself.

I need to try getting some sleep. AND I NEED TO SEE A DOCTOR too. Cos ppl think I m putting eyeshadow. Argh!!! Its getting on my nerves...

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Foolish